Getting over fear of Judgement & Rejection

My New youtube Channel:
My New youtube Channel:

Over the course of the past week or so, I have been exploring different mediums for my content.

I want to find what works best for me and going along the theme of self-awareness I thought that my next logical step would be video.

I started a YouTube channel and have uploaded a few videos already.

I was not sure if I would share these with ALL of my friends and family but decided to do it anyways.

How did I come to this conclusion? Well I had to face my fears of being judged or rejected. By not releasing out to everyone I was already rejecting myself. This was the worst thing that I could do.

I have been working on having positive thoughts and encouraging thoughts. I can’t let anyone else hold that judgement. I have to approve of myself first and appreciate what I have done. I can’t rely on others to provide that for me.

What steps did I take to get to this point?

1) I first made a list of what I had to lose by working on the YouTube channel.

2) Then I made a list of what I had to gain.
-Be Vulnerable
-Facing the fear of being judged and criticized

3) Make a decision: DO IT! When in doubt, do it. What’s the worst that could happen?

So I did it. The upside outweighed the potential downsides.

I knew this would be hard and tough, facing one of my fears, but I had to do it anyway.

I thought to myself. Would I regret not doing this when I am older? The answer was a resounding YES!!

Haven’t regretted it one bit. I have received great feedback and support.

When I thought about being vulnerable and putting myself out there I had no idea what that would look like.

All I want is to help others and make this world a little bit better by the time I leave. I want to leave a legacy for my children and grandchildren.

I want to make my ancestors proud. I know they have sacrificed so much for me to have such a great opportunity. I am preparing myself to take full advantage of this abundant world.

This is no easy task. I am an ambitious dreamer. Anyone who knows me well will tell you this.

What is the alternative? Settle for the norm, give in to what society thinks and expects of me?

I don’t think so!

I’m different, then again I knew I was always weird, different, awkward, however, you want to call it.

I am coming into my own and feeling more comfortable in my skin. Being completely OK with that has been tough and quite a journey. I am happy to be different.

That doesn’t mean I am better than anyone else but that I am becoming more self-aware of me and who I am.

Taking the time to discover what I like, what I stand for, what I value. I make the effort to write down my goals, dreams, and values.

I want to help as many people as I can. In order to do that, I have to continue investing in myself and learn as much as I can but also while taking action. Nothing will happen without action. Taking action takes courage but also persistence.

Remaining patient is a constant challenge for me. When I don’t receive that immediate gratification, it is easy to be discouraged.

Staying on pace and taking it step by step, piece by piece, day by day is what keeps me sane. I don’t have to accomplish everything in one day.

But if I take even 1 step forward and improve by 1 % each day that will help carry me and steer me in the right direction.

I will keep putting in the work, time, and effort. I don’t want to live with the poison called regret.

I am the only one responsible. I take that ownership over my ship. You can too. Take control over the steering wheel.

No excuses, no BS! Be honest with yourself. Do you not have time, or do you not make it a priority? Not having enough time is a lazy excuse. Get down to the deeper lying issue.

Do you not want to do it or do you not care enough to make it happen?

I ask myself these types of questions on a consistent basis.

Challenging yourself is tough. Challenge your thoughts, beliefs, and actions. Are you putting your Time and actions in the areas of your life that you consider the most important?

Many thoughts that we believe to be true could very well be false. Never taking a step back to ask ourselves what if this was false? What if my friends actually wanted me to succeed? What if they wouldn’t make fun of me or reject me?

So…..What if? You could either keep playing around in your head with different thoughts or you could take action.


Thank you for reading to the end 🙂

I care for you and want to help in any way!

Drop a comment or shoot me an email Here

– Jessi

PS: Here is the link to my YouTube channel

About the author

Jessi Mendoza

Washington State University Alumni, Financial Services Professional, passionate about Self Development and investing in oneself.

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